Contrary to what I thought, perhaps my absence hasn’t made THAT much of a difference…
Only to me.
EMO mode.
Guess who’s back (online)?
Okay, so the non-internet weeks are over and I’m back online feeling happy and connected.=) It sucked not having internet and feeling bleh. IT REALLY DID. But I’m grateful for the awesome weekend and Monday that I had.
Saturday night was hilarious. I went over to Freyberg because nobody was home and as soon as I was done with the laundry, I left. We hung out and then headed to Pak N’ Save with Chu, Mikka, and Cherissa and bought beer and food for that night’s get-together.
After getting to Freyberg, I had to head back to Edge Hill because my clothes were on the line and it was starting to get really cold, plus it looked like rain too, so I went back home and harvested.
When I got back to Freyberg, I got started on making some pasta, while Chu got busy with his Sisig. (Pig head in the sink freaked me out a little but the results were DELICIOUS).
Long story short, my pasta was bland, but I had wonderful and supportive friends who ate it up anyway. It was a good night and I was happy to have people to drink with again. After a while, some of Chu’s friends came, 4 of them, and joined us as well.
One of them had some weed and I just couldn’t resist taking a puff. Ariel joined me outside for a little bit. Had just one because it wouldn’t light up because it was rolled up too tight. Went inside instead.
Lemme just cut to the chase here…
Chu and I went for a ride with Ariel to take Youn Jin and Nais home (which is funny because Nais and I live in the same place but I slept over at Freyberg). When we got back, I was pretty buzzed and so Chu, Cherissa, Mikka, and I started talking about “stuff.”
Shit started to come out and then all of a sudden we were all honest and share the same opinion about somebody we all know (whose name I’d rather not type because it might come out somewhere and then things might get messy), somebody I get annoyed at frequently.
So it’s funny because they find said person annoying too!
Then perhaps, our friendship went up a notch higher. HAHAHAHAHA
To be continued… Skype time with Pia.
Hi, Pia.=)
Why tonight?
Why now?
I suppose it was a little overdue anyway.
I really really REALLY thought I was okay.
Then again, I know I WILL be.
Boing
He’s less enthusiastic than I remember.
I remember the company being awesome, and our conversations being filled to the brim with ANYTHING and EVERYTHING.
It was fun, lively, childish but grown-up, or at least, going towards that.
I don’t know what’s left of it, really.
I hope there’s still a WHOLE LOT for it to live on.
It’s just that I miss it.
Janey: Putangina mo, Bam!
Me: Hindi puta ang nanay ko!
Janey: Sorry, sorry. Ang ibig ko sabihin, tangina.
Distractions
It’s funny how a weekend without any “distractions” has made me feel a little bit “aloneish.” I also say “funny” because we’ve actually been really busy this weekend and it felt like it went by so fast. We haven’t been busy going out though. Just buying things for the house, doing chores, and looking around for more stuff.
Yesterday, I got so frustrated because 3 of my shirts said “Do not tumble dry.” 2 of which were my favorites! Nothing ends up dry in this weather so I had to hang my shirts by the heater, changing their positions in order to get them to dry.
When we got home from the laundry place in Hataitai, Mikka and I were rather disappointed upon finding out that some of our clothes were not yet dry.=(
I got super duper annoyed because I just felt so helpless over THIS EXTREMELY MINOR LITTLE THING. It’s just that I never had to worry about these things back home and even if I had to do them here, under different weather circumstances, I’d just hang them outside to dry and everything would be alright. It could’ve been so easy! But it wasn’t. Add the fact that I am gonna be getting my period soon, and you have a very frustrated, slightly sad, and a tad bit irritated Bam. I’m not blaming my pmsing, okay, maybe I am, but it really DOES make a difference.=(
Everyone was pretty busy too so I didn’t wanna bug anybody on ym or bbm. I was just… Feeling really unpleasant. Still am feeling it a little bit but whatever. Gotta stand firm! I’m here now, and I’ve got to deal with whatever comes my way.
I mean, I don’t like how I feel right now but I’ll deal with it still.
Must get myself together.
Breathing in, breathing out.
Tonight, I looked up at the sky while walking back to the house after a night at the town.
The stars were “complete” and it was pretty.
=)
